I really like watching horror movies with a bunch of people who are my friends!! It's so fun to sit together in the dark and enjoy being scared and enjoy scaring other people and enjoy scaring yourself. And then we can scream and laugh and swear and discuss the overused tactics and the scary plot and how some people are terrified already and is almost going to convulse and die.

Like, die.

The cheap thrills that we all go for. Hah!

The ones that I've watched so far are so few in numbers. Like, Shutter, Alone, House of Wax, Omen, the Maid. Bleh. I think that's all.

I WANT TO WATCH MORE HORROR FILMS.

Come, come, watch with me.

I am running out of stuff that I'm interested in. Considering that I get bored so very easily, this isn't really all that surprising.

But I'm now bored of the internet, which really sucks, because if you're not bored of it, then you can do so many things. 
And I'm now sort of bored of reading, because all this information reception is so mundane and not thrilling to me.
And I'm bored of music, because the recent releases are not all that nice, and having frequent access to them makes you immune to them.
And I'm bored of PW, but seriously speaking, who isn't?

So I want to watch movies, preferrably horror ones, or thrillers, but no one is free to watch with me, and I'm not brave enough to watch alone (wahlao, it sounds like a bad pun).
And I want to go on wikipedia, because I haven't really got bored of it yet, what with all the interesting information and the underlying tones of sarcasm and/or biasness, but because of all this, you can't really be sure whether it's fact or fiction, and then you sort of confuse yourself, which is bad.
And I want to do something new, but I have, like, no time, because they all require commitment.

Hmph. This is so annoying. And it's making me frustrated and bad-tempered.

Rawr. 

***

I passed, with somewhat slightly above average results (I think). I'm currently at the period where my marks are above what I thought I would get, but I am still unable to be happy with them, and yet is unwilling to put in effort to raise them. 

How how how?

I suppose I should work hard. But considering me, who gets bored so very easily, I might actually do worse if I put in consistent effort. That would not be fun. It would be really, really disappointing. Because the amount of work done and the expected results do not form a positive correlation.

I am still in the state where I am unable to link marks to lifelong happiness, and so, is unwilling to work for them. Considering that my mother doesn't pressurize me, my teachers have other people to worry about, and my friends are lovely people who thinks that I 'can do it one lah', I am relatively free from any motivation and pressure.

This life is actually rather nice. Thank you for your help. :D

***

Should I go for grading or not? Hmm? If I don't go in January, I will have to wait one year, because April I have Huang Cheng, July I have prelims, October I am studying very hard for A levels, so one year later lor. 

But I am so not prepared to go in January. There are better ways to waste $107.

***

Does anyone have good music?

I really like this video.
The production crew used about 3250 photos for this entire video, taken over a period of 2 days with a camera hanging from the ceiling of the studio in which it was filmed.
Some of the bed sheets are owned by the singer, who managed to find people who are willing to work at a discounted price for this video.
All of them are Israeli, I think.

I like citrus fruits like oranges, grapefruits, lime, lemon, pomelos, etc. They're so tangy and stimulating and interesting and nice. No matter whether it's juice or the fruit or the candy or the baked goods, they all taste so nice!! And then there's the contrast thing between the skin and the flesh of the fruit. Like sour and bitter. I want to bake lemon meringe!! And I want to know the recipe to Secret Recipe's lemon cheesecake. D:

***

I read up on human spontaneous combustion on wikipedia. It is rather interesting. Imagine it: a person walking down a street with a few other random passerbys, and then he suddenly bursts into fire!! Such an interesting concept. I wonder if it's actually possible. Maybe the rate of it happening is like the rate of a lighting ball happening.

A lighting ball, by the way, is a ball of lighting that is capable of floating around randomly, like a ghost light, and is a controversial phenomenom due to lack of visual and scientific evidence.

But anyway, the thing about spontaneous combustion is that most reported incidents over the past few centuries are often hearsays, or are caused by external sources of fire, like cigarettes or other not noticeble objects. But anyway, there are accounts from people who actually survived such burnings, and they have reported extreme static electricity since young. One of them used to sting himself whenever he touched metal because of his internal static electricity. Apparently, both of them burst suddenly into blue flames (on seperate occasions), and didn't realise until their family members pointed it out in shock.

One of them was walking up the driveway to the house when she noticed flashes of blue light, and then she shouted for her mother to come out to see, then her mother came out and looked at her and started screaming, because she was on blue fire. Then she ushered the daughter to the bath to wash off the fire, and the daughter is apparently hysterically happy because she thought everything was really fun. Actually, if I spontaneously combusted and I can't feel the fire, I would be hysterically happy too. 

But there's no explaination for it as of now. All the given explainations kill the victims by burning them to charcoal. So interesting. 

There's cases of exploding animal carcass though. Because people leave them rotting, so the built up of gases causes the carcass to explode. Like beached whales. Or they can self induce the explosion. Like ants and termites, that will self explode to cause damage or emit noxious and sticky chemical. Or they can fail in self defence mechanisms. Like this pool of toads in Germany. They normally expand to scare off potential predators, like birds. The concept is similar to puffer fish. But apparently, they over expanded, and then they exploded. But let's not blame them for their failures, because scientists suspect a viral infection.

But they still fail lah.

After reading the inspirational piece on yinhwee's blog about drawing whenever you can, and not fearing about possible sneering and scorn, I got the urge to try it out one day on the mrt when I was travelling from Jurong to Bugis. As all who travels this line knows, the journey is long and boring and without any added value to one's short life. So I took out this notebook that's actually a minature version of a foolscape stack which I have taken to carrying around, and started drawing the shoe of the guy standing opposite me (I was standing beside the door and leaning on the glass pane, if you know what I mean).

It was quite interesting. He was wearing Converse black shoes. The design with two tongues. Anyway, it was quite interesting, but I think he noticed me looking constantly, because very few people take out a notebook and a mechanical pencil on a train while standing and then stare at your feet constantly while scribbling away. So I think he got suspicious and started shifting around. But I think I managed to get a decent drawing with all his shifting around. In the span of 3 stations. Not bad lah. I think. Hahaha. 

Then I drew the sandals of the lady who was sitting behind him. Then I got bored. Then I started writing prose, because drawing is really tiring for someone like me whose right brain is not frequently in use. But it was interesting. So far I have now drawn qianrui's water bottle, my highlighter, the 2 pens+post-it set that the school gave for whatever it was. And other things that I forgot about. But it was really quite fun. People should try it out.

***

I like CSI Miami. Today they introduced a case where the murder weapon is a highly illegal electronic gun that is capable of setting off 10,000 bullets per minute. The victim turns to what is commonly known as 'minced meat'. It's quite interesting. And then they introduce the very clever method of killing a person by injecting an air bubble into a vein or an artery, so you introduce air into the circulatory system, thus causing heart failure when the bubble reaches the heart, because somehow the heart cannot function because it cannot pump air. So they die, with seemingly no trace. Oh, but I realise that there's a problem, because injections leave bruises.

Okay, nevermind, the show just solved that problem. You can just inject the bubble into the circulatory system through the eye. And, well, there's no obvious trace. 

Ahhh, but real life is never this glam. You don't even get to wear nice clothes like them when you inspect crime scenes. You have to wrap yourself up protective layers like medical staff in the infectious disease department. With shower caps and face masks somemore. And then spend dunno how long testing for DNA and looking for stands of hair and fingerprints and examining all sorts of marks for possible evidence. But it's quite satisfying, I suppose, when you solve a case. But I also think it's equally frustrating when you can't do anything to help a case.

And CSI New York have cases that are too, er, provocative? Contraversial? Either way, it's more explicit and eyebrow-raising than CSI Miami.

***

I am feeling better today. It's good that I'm improving!! I think. My father bought a Dell laptop during the recent IT fair. It lags, but it has face recognition which works very fast, so I don't need to type anything at all!! It's not bad lah. And it's pretty convinient. And according to some website it saves electricity as compared to a desktop unit, which means I'm sort of like being environmentally friendly. Hahaha. The static keeps stinging my forearms though, when I'm trying to type, so it's a bit hard.

***

Jomain currently has a dog. It has cured her of her phobias of dogs, but not yet of other animals. Maybe we should get zhiyi a dog, so she won't be scared of dogs anymore. It's very interesting, this phenomenom. But I don't think getting a cockroach for a pet will cure me of my extreme dislike of them. 

 I think I'm ill, though I can't specifically point out what my illness is. My mom attributes it returning-to-school stress. One classmate suggested very mild stomach flu. I don't really know. *Sigh*

So the symptoms are: I can't eat a lot. If I do I feel really terrible, like, my chest constricts and I can't breathe, and I will want to throw up. If I'm not eating, then thinking about food makes me want to throw up. Urgh. It's like, I'm being cut off from food. The only things I can stomach without problems now are liquids (like fruit juice or non-gassy drinks) and ice-cream, but not the creamy kind. The icy, sorbet kind. Yep. So, basically, I have to stop eating until this symptom passes. It's good lah, in a way. I guess.

Yesterday my mother gave me medicated oil to apply. I forgot how it feels like already. It's quite ticklish and shocking. Hahaha. When it hits your navel, it's ticklish like mad, then it starts burning, and that's the shocking part. But it's quite soothing. Oh man, I sound strange. Er, so it's like how you eat chilli, then the burn is shuang. Something like that.

***

The responses I gathered from my previous posts are rather interesting. I had no idea that anyone will actually respond to such a strange topic. Hahaha. Yep, but I gained knowledge. Apparently the chinese thing about cooling and heaty has some basis to it.

I do feel that chinese medicine and western medicine has their own brand of basis for their reasonings, so it will be unfair to judge one by methods of the other. For example, chinese medicine examines more on the overall human body, but western medicine focuses on individual cells. So while, maybe, western medicine is unable to heal some illness or problems, because they can identify effects on the entire human body, chinese medicine may also be unable to treat some diseases that goes on at the cellular level (like virus-induced diseases). To each their own, I guess.

But up till now, I am getting more and more interested in the traditional chinese medicine and biomedical science double degree course that NTU offers. I suspect my eventual grades won't be enough for the choosing panel to even glance at, but, well, it's quite nice to think about the impossible sometimes. 

*** 

I'm quite worried about my mother. She has been expressing her concerns about her joint pains and her memory deteriorating. I'm not so much worried about the former than the latter. It's a very scary thought, thinking about your parents growing old, and contracting illness that you hear so frequently about, but never thought will happen to your parents. Many people try to avoid thinking about it, or they simply refuse to belive that it will happen, but I think sooner or later, we will have to confront it. I try not to let it affect me too much, but I admit that sometimes I cannot help but get overwhelmed by the fear of what may happen to my mother. And then I worry about how I am going to take care of her, and how I have to do all the household chores (because my family is bloody chauvanisitc), and how I have to cook rubbish food because I can't cook, and how she won't be there to offer advice or give common sense, because god knows her level of common sense and my level of common sense are like, miles apart. And then I try to think of other stuff.

Because, really, she's not young anymore, and, well, time passes really fast, and that day will really come, so what will I do then?

***

I discovered that the mama shop below my flat sells very nice ice cream bars, that's cold and sour and cheap and nicer by far than any of the $2++ ones. Really, they're trying to cheat the customers, the price they sell some of the ice creams at.

Meh, today was such a boring day. I was not able to function normally until 3.30 because I woke at 1.00 and ate lunch and had splitting headache and was eventually forced to eat 2 tablets of extra strong panadol because going for taekwondo with splitting headaches is not advisable.

I wonder if one can develop resistance to panadol. My mother says yes, but zongbin says no, because her brother, who is in medicine, says no. There are very confusing advices floating around on Earth in our society about various kinds of things.

Okay never mind I close this topic because I just asked my mother again and she denies ever saying that. She then diverted the topic to how I should stop drinking cold drinks because apparently they induce menstrual cramps. I asked around once, and no one has even heard of this relationship. This is very strange. She also attributes tea to cramps. And citrus fruits and pears and pineapples to heavy flow. My mother has very interesting knowledge on this sort of things.

***

Taekwondo is entering a very critical period. I wonder if I'll ever rightfully own a black belt. It is so very expensive and time consuming. And then there's the feeling that I can't be very good at it, but still, the feeling is not strong enough to prompt action. Hmm. The dilemna of being a lazy person who doesn't need to meet expectations but becomes mildly unsatisfied with life, or a person who actively pursues what they want, but goes through so much trials and tribulations that it hurts my head and heart to even think about it. But we all have to admit that these people are the ones that acheive the most, and becomes the envy of many others.

If laziness is a terrible trait because it makes you leech off other people, what about people who are lazy, but still make enough out of life to support themselves? Why do people despise those who do not, as they say, pursue what they want to the maximum. It is very curious, I feel. If they complain about their plight, then to despise them is probably understandable, because they mostly blame their plight on other people. But then if they lead their lives quietly, do they still suffer the criticism of other people? I read somewhere, that everything that irritates us about other people is what you fear in yourself the most. Maybe those who criticise fear precisely this trait in them, the lax and laziness.

Thus, by condeming other people, they leave themselves no choice but to never be in that position.

*** 

Cutting my hair and trimming my nails make me feel like I am going through a very big change. I have no idea why. I like funny hairdressers. They are very entertaining people. And I also like hairdressers who try not to breathe onto your hair or your head or your face.

Wake me up, when September comes~

Okay that was cliche. I just cut my nails, so they will no longer be long and curved and nicely manicured and scary. So now they're blunted and short and fugly but still capable of scratching other people so they're still (secretly) scary.

***

Mid-autumn festival is coming!! I anticipate mooncakes and pomelos!! WOOHOO!! I love mooncakes and pomelos! Somehow the laxative effect pomelos have on other people don't work on me. I am capable of eating an entire pomelo for a meal without feeling like throwing up or going to the loo. No doubt yilin has bad memories about pomelos and their association with me.

Apparently laxative effects don't really work on me. For example, candies like Ricola (apparently you really feel shitty in the literal sense if you consume one whole box), excessive amounts of raisins. If you know of anymore you can let me know and I'll see whether they work. If I'm interested in testing them out in the first place, that is.

Oily stuff and spicy stuff works though. But they're gross anyway, so who wants to eat them in excess anyway. DX

***

Okay, my mother just insulted the hc dragon and lion dance troupe shirt that I brought home to wash. Lol. She dug it out from the washing machine, where we usually dump all our dirty clothes, so that she can throw them back in by colour, then she saw it, then she went, "Oh, why do you have this shirt-- aiyoh, why is it so ugly?!" This is hilarious. Actually I share her sentiments, but by tradition, lion dance troupes usually have neon uniforms so that we can be loud and flaming and attention seeking. So no can do.

***

Promos are in less than 30 days away. I am absolutely not worrying about anything. My life starts going into shambles from this point onwards, as I am unable to take H3 in the future due to laziness in JC1 promotional exams and therefore, I will be unable to obtain a good scholarship, and I cannot take all the bloody expensive university courses and end up with one that's meagre and unsatisfactory and I shall be a common and untalented office lady till the day I retire and then die from boredom or something equally bland. In summary, I will lead a common and boring life, as with other common and boring people.

That is so unappetising. I always knew that I will end up in that path, but I was just wondering when I will finally tread upon it and walk down it to a point of no return. 

Huang Cheng people should find this familiar:




Now there's a parody!! (not by me, duh) They are a comedy group, and they changed the lyrics a bit to make it a 'let's conserve energy' song. Yeah, so it turned from 'Gee' to 'Ener-gee'



Slow (and creepy) version for those of you who wants to learn (ahem):




This parody is of hana yori dango, boys over flowers, the korean version. Subtitles start after 15 seconds. OMG the guy acting as a girl really looks like a girl!! You can link by yourself if you want to watch further. The bts is worth watching too!!



To turn on subtitles click the white triangle at the lower right corner, then turn on subtitles.

I haven't posted in a long time!!

I have been very busy. 

***

嗯，黄城的却是很丰富和独特的一个经验。好玩的，累的，疯狂的，无奈的，差不多全都体验到了。它让我交到了很多好好玩的朋友，它让我的学业完全毁灭，它让我一次过睡了二十个钟头（呵呵，我还不知道这类事是有可能的）。

有一段时间，好迟好迟才到家。有一段时间，完全无法在课上保持清醒的状态。有一段时间，老师发的讲义都是空白的。有一段时间，我体验到了人生的多次多彩，我看到了许多人的辛酸及无奈，我了解到自己的短处和嚣张。

很有意义的一段时间。自然的，大家迟早都会忘。至少，在我们还惦记着，还珍惜着的这段时间，让我们更快乐，更潇洒地享受人生及对方吧。

我想放风筝。

***

Eh, I am screwed. It's like, every year, my threshold for the amount of undone work increases greatly. Lol. I am now behind by 1 month. Which is a lot, considering JC life and syllabus.

My math is stagnant at inequalities. My chemistry is stagnant at chemical bonding 1. My biology is on a skim through and copy mode of learning for tutorials and mindmaps. Econs has never been follwed up. The school thinks our cohort sucks at KI so they are now deciding whether to make us go do GP instead (in which case i refuse to do H2 econs, and will appeal for H2 literature), and I am only catching up with PW, but that's because that's a group project and one must hold responsibility to your groups members.

And strangely, through this mess and tangles and problems, I feel absolutely no sense of worry. Instead, I keep thinking all of this is hilarious. I mean, the amount of work you can accumulate, and the way your grades messes up, and how everyone thinks its perfectly normal, other than your parents, but they don't count, because all grades other than A is lumped together under the category of 'not good'.

There is this part of me that secretly wants to see how long I can carry this on before I start to worry or panic. I suspect I wouldn't at all. That would be bad. I should catch up. But all I do at home is sleep. And the sense of guilt after that is extremely mild, since sleep is so satisfying. I stay in school, but it's so boring to study alone. And then I end up sleeping on my notes. Study group, anyone?

***

I am struck with the sudden realisation that we are already into May. May indicates that almost half the year is gone, and what goals you have set for yourself this year should be well on its way into completion. My goals are nowhere near completion. They are nowhere near starting. They are starting to shows signs that they might not even materialise. That is terrible. It says a lot about me, ne?

But it was quite shocking, the 'it is currently May' thing. I was extremely confused at first, then I was extremely shocked. Losing track of time can be a disconcerting experience. Life just flows past you. Quickly. Silently. Oh my, that is quite scary. For all we know the next moment will suddenly be your 60th year in life.

Although, in a way, it is good, because you are so wrapped up in your activities and experiences that you cease to care about the flow of time. You just embrace it, and let it run by while you create your own precious, beautiful memories.

In all ways, I feel that it beats being so bored and free that you actually notice, slowly and painfully, the passing of each and every single day.

***

I want to watch a movie. I want to fly a kite. I want to eat lemon sorbet. :D

Wednesday was hcjc's founder's day!! To celebrate the glorious founding of our beloved hcjc, j1s had the day off!! Too bad to athena and the 3 arthemis classes and the j2s, who had to do cip/have lessons. But because huangcheng is coming soon (omg like 28 days left) we had to come school for props.

So we didn't have classes in the morning, so zixin jaslyn gekyong and I went yilin's house to have a productive morning. Lol, okay lah, we just watched antique. But before we started I nearly made yilin's microwave explode with the the microwave popcorn and the popcorn all turned into charcoal and the microwaved smoked and the smell remained after airing and all. And her parents smelt the burnt smell even when they came home in the evening!! Omg, I'm so sorry yilin. D:

Yilin lives on landed property!! And it's ulu, and it's opposite this school whose name I forgot.

Antique, was, er, thrilling. XD Omg, like wtf. Damn hot. I wish more films of this kind/genre were made. D:

Then we went to school for huang cheng. Stayed till 9! to finish the flats. But to tell the truth yining and I were crapping lah. Miaoran jie and zhiyi finished the thing, but they also went mad occassionally, and painted each other's hair and limbs. With grey some more. Miaoran jie can be so mad. And boonhui went somewhere to wash up.

Yeah, and huangcheng ends at 9 from this week on. And we have Important Things every saturday. I am so dead for taekwondo. Shit.

***

I was in a terrible mood on thursday. Was snappish for around the whole day? I really really believe it has something to do with the stupid bio drawings we had to do in the morning. Then I got gradually more and more tired and snappish. And I think it was on thursday that I snapped at samuel. Cause I was napping at class bench with a lot of other people around me (mainly the econs H1 ppl)  then he was kicking this ball then it hit me and I woke up and we all know what kind of shitty temper I have when I just woke up and I sort of turned around and gave him the evil eye and swore at him. And, er, he looked shocked and went somewhere to hide. Then I went back to sleep. Apparently I was quite scary. I'm sorry, Samuel.

But yiran said he was trying to aim at her because she had funny reactions, even though she was really quite angry. Yiran is sad. She has like, nil control over people who keeps suanning her. Lol, jiayou.

Then I bought nerds to eat to alleviate my bad mood but I got a headache from it (I don't know why this cause and effect keeps happening in recent times) then it continued but increased exponentially in magnitude after full run for 'yuan' finished. Omg, the throbbing was horrendous. It felt like there's this major blood vessel in my brain and it's going to explode soon due to high pressure and I'm going to have a stroke and the throbbing is due to the blood being unable to get through and the pressure is building up and I can't even think.

Seriously.

Then we had to walk through main gate so the path was really long and I was trying to float cause the contact of my soles against the ground sort of sends vibrations that turns into earthquakes when they reach my head. And 67 took bloody long when I eventually reached the bus stop. Rawr.

When I reached home my mom was sleeping already. So sad lah. Then I very went to shower very quickly and went to sleep very quickly.

***

I think poking provides entertainment and amusement and lots of fun for a lot of people. For both the executor and the audience. And sometimes even the victim. Lol. There are now 3 guys in my class who engage in occasional poking. It's damn gay, but it's also damn funny. It's really quite unexpected that they are wary of such things. I would never have thought of it. XD And sometimes it's really hilarious how they try to bear the feeling but they epic fail lah. Especially when they keep tensing as you poke and their facial muscles twitch involuntarily. LOL.

On friday I poked daniel when he was talking to daryll and he roared at me!! It was damn funny, I tell you. And the roar was loud. LOUD. Hahaha. And during KI tutorial he was napping after he walked very fast and entered the classroom earlier and I pulled joanne from s60 towards him and directed her hand to his face. She was totally hysterical from the thrill and the fun of it. XD Then he woke up and he am chio (again!!) and said "what the hell" and I poked his face with her finger again and joanne died from it. LOL.

Daniel is so funny. XD And he probably has never been poked before in his life. And even though he always go "what the hell" he also am chio at the same time so it's okay~

***

Today at huang cheng we had continuous rehersal it was so stressful for me oh my gawd I will so die at victoria when the time comes. And I am so annoyed that I have heavy footsteps. Gosh I hope they go away soon.

And xie mu was so screwed and we all got blasted for giving shitty performances and all the seniors were there!!

Rawr. We will improve.

***

Ahhhh there are funny people in woodwork. Lol. And yining is really quite funny. And rouying is good at disappearing.

I went to cut my hair today, because my mother has been mentioning for weeks that my hair is too brittle and too little and has too many white hairs and I'm going bald so I might as well cut it short and maintain it from then on and when I wash my hair at 1am because I reached home at 1230am my hair will dry faster than if it's long.

So I cut my hair short. :D

We went to this hair saloon at the choa chu kang interchange where they charge students only $10. It looks quite good and all. And the hairdresser was so funny~!! Oh my god, he's like damn gay, and he has tattoos and ear piercings and he was so humourous and all. And he gave free advice about my hair (although I think he's just promoting his products, but whatever).

Me: I want short hair.
Hairdresser: Okay. Long enough to tie lah?
Me: No, just short.
Hairdresser: 0,0 really ah? No regrets ah?
Me: Yeah.
Hairdresser: Orh. **grabs ponytail and cut and threw onto the floor**
Me: OH MY TIAN
Hairdresser: Hahahahahah~

Oh my god he's so mad. Then I commented he looks gay after I went out of the saloon with my mom, and she was like, "How can you say that?!" but then that's because she's homophobic and therefore took the comment the wrong way. -_-

Yeah, but I like hair saloons. I have always thought that the whole process is a very nice experience. You go in an air-conditioned room and sit in this funny chair and get drabbed in all sorts of weird fabrics and the hairdresser proceeds to change your hair. It's such an interesting experience!! And I only experience it probably about once every 2 to 3 months. D:

Okay lah, some people find it quite unsettling that strange people are waving sharp objects in close proximity to their heads, but I really like sitting in the chair, with your hair wet from the spray, and then the hairdresser just does his/her thing while you stone in the very comfortable enviroment with air-con and comfy chairs and leg rests and mirrors. And then your hair gets thrown into weird positions by all the hair clips etc. It's just like sitting there while someone gives you a new image and you don't even have to do anything, except maybe pay for the haircut.

I really really like hair saloons. They're so comfy. And they have this unique smell that you can't really get elsewhere that I find really nice, and everything is like cold and relatively clean (if you ignore the hair on the ground) and everyone looks professional.  I love hair saloons!!

***

Squadmates have turned relatively sadder this week, judging by their blog posts. Oh man, I should start caring about them.

Today was so boring. Okay lah, I did math.

But the bus driver totally pissed me off. Like wtf is he trying to do? Can he please drive properly? I had the very strong urge to scream "screw you and your horrible driving skills" when I was getting off the bus. But I was wearing the hcjc uniform, so that would not be good.

But what pleasure exactly do they derive from accelarating, then speeding at top speeds even when you're turning, then braking without warning at red lights and zebra crossings? One of these days you're going to kill someone/something on the road, and/or a passenger who can't balance, and happens to be so suay they kill themselves by concussion or something. The standing passengers couldn't even balance.

We know the bus company is underpaying you, and you're damn bored, but that's sort of your own business, so can you please go find your own solutions that does not involve the lives and happiness of other human beings? Not to say 1 whole busload of people who just wants to get home in 1 piece, and does not need a bus driver with terrible skills to piss them off.

***

I was waiting with a friend at the jc reception area to get the tickets for her class when this old senior came to the counter to retrieve his items. He sort of got into a small argument with the lady there.

Apparently he's an 04 student, and he came back to get postal order (I actually have no idea what this is) because someone called him. And he was really nervous and all, cause he couldn't maintain eye contact, and he spoke with his head 45 degrees downwards, and his speed was really fast and soft, so I dont really think the lady could hear him. So she asked him to repeat, and then he got really impatient and started being rude.

But the whole point of this is that it's really quite ridiculous, the way you see some people interact. The lady wanted him to speak clearer, but all she did was to make him repeat himself, and he couldn't understand what she wanted, so he just repeated himself with the exact same volume and words. Then he got pissed. Then he started being rude. Then the lady got pissed. Then she started being commanding. Which I think did nothing to help the situation. Because he apparently got more pissed. And then his hands started shaking. It was quite amusing, but because he actually looked like a psychopath capable of murder at that point of time, we are not supposed to laugh.

So the argument involved a little of snatching of handphones and him flipping through confidential files to which she said, "Do not touch those things", to which I think he got offended at being commanded, and then after a long period of time, he managed to flip discreetly through the files when she weren't looking, and he found his stuff, and he shook it in her face and went, "see, see! Postal order! Can you see?" And he stormed away. I think he would have shouted if not for the fact that the entire office was very quiet. :O

It's sort of terrible when you look at people who graduate from hcjc, and you realise that they cannot communicate properly, and that he can't even behave like he came from hcjc. Maybe he has problems, I don't really know, and I don't want to be too judging, but it's really quite tragic, because then you think, what is the point of having such good education when you cannot communicate verbally in a proper manner with all the people around you? It's quite sad, really. :/

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Yesterday we poked daniel!! It was quite a success, and was such a fun thing to do!! Lol, at the beginning he jumped away, so we sort of thought he's really scared of it. But then when we came back from the KI lunch we met the huangcheng people and classmates who were in huangcheng learnt of the incident!! And yilin and gekyong mustered enough courage to poke daniel!!

It was so funny!! In the end he got so fed up he assumed the "I am a mountain" pose and grunted loudly whenever someone poked him. LOL. We must attempt new things. Of the things we can do him that are thought of are currently: slapping, pinching, smearing face with cheese, punching.

Daniel is in great danger.

Today I was on the bus on my way to school when this kid plopped down beside me. He didnt have a guardian with him I think. And he kept wanting to look at the screen of the PSP that I was playing with. So I kept turning inwards because it's bloody uncomfortable to have someone looking over your shoulder when you're trying to burst all the bubbles during Bubble Bobble. Then he stood up on his seat so that he can have a better look.

Like wtf kid. Does your mother not teach you not to dirty bus seats with your shoes?

Kid: Can I.....? (I had earphones on)
Me: Sorry? (Taking out earphones)
Kid: Can I play with your PSP?
Me: **Stares at him due to inability to process such a proactive approach**
Kid: **Repeats previous question a zillion times while leaning in 10cm away from my face**
Me: Er, no?
Kid: Oh. (continues to stare at PSP)

Rawr like wtf. In the end I kept the PSP because it ran out of power anyway. Then I stared out the window and pretended he is non-existent. But seriously. D: Such kids freak me out. And he didnt even have guardians. At least, he didn't have responsible guardians who doesn't stop him from harrassing innocent passerbys. Wahlao they are so going to regret it if he decides to chat up some psychopath and the psychopath suddenly whips out a dagger and stabs him to death. Not that I actually hope that will happen. >D

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Oh man, I am so fed up with my earphones. They sort of spoilt, and now music only blasts through 1 ear. I totally dislike this feeling of having music in only 1 ear. If I want to blast music and turn death I rather be death in 2 ears than 1.

I want a new camera. D:

Today I went to do KI with shumei at nlb at bugis. I found this tome that contains drawings of the human body dated from the 1800s. It's extremely fascinating once you realise that they actually drew out all the things. There were drawings of bones, muscular structure, nerves, blood vessels, of all parts of the body, and the drawings are all defined and detailed. Oh my gawd, I am so awed and impressed.

But then it got to the section on surgery, and it got a little creepy and disturbing. Because, well, it's the 1800s, and everything was relatively primitive as compared to now. D: They had amputations and all the surgery tools. Gosh, now I feel a little sick.

But it's interesting how the book is mainly in French. They translated it to English and some other languages, of course, but the different chapters are mainly stated in French.

Lol, then we went to play in the glass lift!! It was so scary. I forgot how scary it can be. We pressed the 14th lvl from basement 1, and the 14th level is probably the 50th level of a HDB block or something. It was so scary~!! Then when it came down I had to face the button panel omg. Shumei just laughed her head off. Shit lah, this indicates that my fear of heights worsened. Wahlao, I bet it's due to height elements.

I think I made zhiyi run through the whole nlb today lol. I was supposed to pass her notes, then I told her I was outside nlb cause it was too cold, then shumei and I wanted to do work so we went in, then I told zhiyi we were at the studying room, but there was no space, so we went to the basement 1, and then I told her I was at basement 1. Okay this paragraph is pointless.

Kenny came later!! Then shumei left. Then near 6 we started chatting and he told me about him and zongbin going xulie's house and I told him about shumei talking about her and qianrui and alex going samuel's house and it was all fine until this very scary, er, youth? Uncle? Er, what do you call males who are in their 20s their 30s? Aiyah whatever, the main point is he went "Excuse me" in this voice. Then I turned to look at him. Then he stared back at me. Then I look at him more expectantly. Then he continued looking at me.

And then I am hit with the sudden realisation that we are chatting too loudy, like OH MY GOD.

This is so embarrassing. DX So i mumbled "sorry" and went back to my work.

Today I learnt that there is a 4 storey Popular branch at bras basar (however you spell it) and that it has a CAFE. But the cafe was empty when we went there. D: So sad.

I also learnt that samuel is a clean freak.

And that xulie's house costs $3 million. And 1 of his dining chairs cost $600. But apparently they are just plastic. >D

Lol, apparently in HwaChong, it's short for Post Orientation Party. I keep linking it with NP and thinking that there'll be parades then the party. Ahhhhhh, clash of systems and terms and whatnots.

POP was not that high until it got darker. As huishan said, the night being dark does a whole lot more atmospheric effect than a bright sky! When POP started, the sky wasn't even turning dark. But i think it's understandable. After all, faculty dance competition was taking place. If it really was dark, then there would be nothing to judge about a mass of people moving around and waving long limbs in the air. Even if they do have light sticks around their wrists/necks.Which just served to confuse the judges.

Apollo won! They do deserve it though, with their enthusiasm in whole as a faculty. And their equiment! Oh manz, good luck to those washing paint/glitter out of their hair! But I stand with my belief that Ares has the best fac dance~! Woohoo~!

I kinda like the school mass dances lol. They are so fun. Okay, actually I am just referring to wild wild west and i've got my mind set on you. They are so fun! So fun~! Danced with yenjin and rensyn and their friend whose name i forgot. D: Sorry. Am really not good with names. Argh, but I just realised that yesterday night was probably the last night everyone can dance mass dance with fun and dignity and not get stared at by other people without feeling conscious. D: Every other event will probably be like CNY, where only the councillors will be left with some other random people who probably got pulled in or dared on by their friends. Rawr.

HwaChong songs are quite nice lol. 心旅 and 我要唱一首华初的歌 are such nice songs. Feel very happy everytime I'm singing them. Haha.

The cheers ICs are damn gay lol. They are also damn lame hahaha. But at least they're funny. OMG, when they're doing mass dances, they're quite sad. It's like, they're on the platforms and are on display for the world to see! Wearing hot pink shirts somemore. Damn funny lah. But at least they can bring out the HwaChong spirit when we're cheering~! Hwa hwa hwa hwa HWACHONG~!

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Because class bench was taken up by seats, so our class retreated to the outer corridor which was cooler and quieter but also darker and more silent. We sat in a circle talking, and was just enjoying the contrast from the throbbing mass in the plaza, which was seriously quite overwhelming. They were dancing the fac dances again if i'm not wrong.

But anyway, I was turning back to look at the crowd to see if they're ending, and I saw chongtee coming over. He's Ares' dance IC, and is in our senior class, and is also constantly harrassed by the pervy gay guys in our class who keeps invading his personal space BUT THE MAIN POINT IS he thought we were really sad that we lost the fac dance comp and all. I think it's partly because we were not highing with the rest of the school, but it was too noisy and deprived of air and hot and sticky and sweaty and we were too tired so we just came out to sit down. And we were half in the dark and were quite quiet so he probably thought we were emoing or something. Then he asked me whether we were okay, and I was like, er, yah. Then he turned to the circle and started to say something like "Okay guys, don't be..." which sort of alerted his presence to the rest of the class who suddenly cheered and whistled and did all sorts of celebratory war crys and we did three cheers for him and chit who's the female dance IC and also happens to be in our senior class and she was being hugged by her friend and looked quite sad. Then chongtee was really really embarrassed by all this attention, and he gave an acceptance/thank you speech and mentioned nothing about not being sad because it was obvious we were anything but. Then he ran away. LOL.

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Went KAP with OG 21~! Realised some shocking things about some people. But seriously ah, with his kind of background and life, I don't blame him when he said he doesn't want to work, even though it's as kiam pah as it sounds. Dropping this kind of bomb on us! WE WILL CRASH YOUR HOUSE FOR OG OUTING MAN!! Better stock up on milo!!

Black Forest McFlurry was a disappointment. D: I don't really like nuts in the first place, of which it had a lot of. Then it had these balls of chocolate covered jelly, which i chewed, and it stuck to my teeth. D: I sucked one, and realised that the chocolate melted relatively quickly, but the jelly still stuck to my teeth. Not good.

We went to pool at 1030!! At a seedy underground place in Bukit Timah plaza where the uncle in charge doesn't care whether you're wearing uniform or not. Seriously. Haha okay lah, it's not really that seedy. Just underground, and still open when the rest of the plaza is closed.

I suck at pool. The guys are seriously good. Seriously. I bet they play very often. Jerrold wore the white gloves that were Ares' secret weapon which actually made him look VERY PRO, and he was! Daniel warmed up after the first game, and proceeded to display his prowess. Then jiayang, who was at the side explaining everything to yinhwee all the while, felt the itch to play and played for a while, which was damn pro as well. Then yinhwee and jiayang and benny left, and jerrold daniel ended up teaming against me and rassh. Not good. LOL.

Then jianler came as raash was about to leave. He said he wasnt very good and didn't really play much, and so sat at the side to watch while drinking his lemon tea. In short, he looked like a sad old ah pek with no one to play chinese chess with. Hahaha. But raash left, and he took her place, and he cleared the table in two turns like WTF. What do you mean by you are not very good and you didnt really play much?!?!?! He later told me that he played at least once a week during the holidays. -.- RAWR. The guys are scarily good.

Raash left her card behind though. She went off to catch her bus, and forgot to get it back from the counter. But it's OKAY~! We kept it for her!

Then daniel and i took 67, which broke down around sijia's house. What is this. Daniel was very sad, because he thinks that he would not be able to catch 302, and would have to walk for 30min, and then when he reached home would still have to bathe before he can sleep, and the next day would have to wake at 5am to go to school for artemis CIP where they would paint walls, and then in the evening still have CT dinner, and so he cannot sleep in between. So sad. D: 

I reached home after 12! Went to sleep around 2. Latest in my life! But at least now i know that the last bus for 67 at the bus stop at sijia's house is at 0033.

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Today I slept for very long again. I woke at 1130 and went back to sleep at 1330 and woke only at 1800. This is not good. At this rate I may one day sleep and never wake up at all! :O

Eh, miao's post about 413 being past and my constant reflections have prompted me to talk about my class.

We are 09S70. S7 indicates that we all take biology. 09 is our year. We have 25 people. We have 9 guys and 16 girls. We have bio teacher Mr Poh Meng Leng as our civics tutor. Our subject combination is BCM+music/KI/ELL/H1econs. We are therefore the BCM rojak class.

I must confess that the class isn't  reallyas bad as I thought it would be. The people that I thought would be really gross are actually very nice to get along with. Lol, you just need to be on the right frequency with them, and they would cease to be fake/annoying/embarrassing/etc. The 1st few days were really misleading I think. I feel guilty and stupid for misjudging and assuming so quickly. It's really like how some other people see 413. Presumptions and inability to understand. Because I had misconceptions about them, so I disliked them. It's quite unfair to them. D: I apologise. (Even though you all can't see this)

But I still stand for some of my previous beliefs. D< Even after interaction. But whatever. My aim is to maintain amicable relationships with everyone. If you can't stand them, stay away from them. But seriously ah, the funny ones are damn funny.

As I am talking about 413, I might as well link the 2. It's true that both classes are not that bonded in the sense of "let's work towards the glorification of our sacred class 413 and support it in all of its endeavours!". But we do identify with our class, and I think that is sufficient. Better than people who deny it. I think if you really dislike your class to the extent of not wanting to admit that you're from it, it's really quite sad, and it's going to haunt you for so many years to come. Although 09S70 will not be as (in)famous in Hwachong as 413 was in Nanyang, I am still really glad we have fun people to spice up life during tutorials. The guys are damm funny, and the girls are very nice to get along with in general. It's really a nice class, and I'm quite happy to be faced with the prospect of another 2 years of crazy and funny times. I like to be able to laugh to funny things in class, and not just study and mug and concentrate and be serious. Therefore, I really am thankful for my current class.

Our civics tutor is Mr Poh Meng Leng. He teaches biology. He told us that from his jc life (or was it earlier?), he has loved research of science material. He finds in regretful that Hwachong bio department 'spoon feeds' the students. But if Hwachong bio department does not 'spoon feed' us the grades will definitely drop and so will the good bio reputation of Hwachong and he will therefore lose A LOT of students. He values punctuality highly. Highly. And he has braces. I am making him sound worse than he really is. Hahaha. He's actually quite funny lor. He jokes with us, and he's really quite lame. -_- But in the good way. At least he's better than those boring-as-hell teachers. He has a personality! He's forgiving lah, which I think is very very important in a teacher. I think he's quite sad that a lot of us chose bio because we hate physics. Haha. It's not a love, it's a lesser of 2 evils! And he watches kang xi lai le~! :D

My chem teacher is Mr Loy. He reminds me of hupbeng. Self-intro ppt wor. And the mannerisms also. And the expressions. -_- The dazed look, the calm but stony expressions of feelings, the dead boring lessons. They can become good friends. We asked him whether we get to blow up any chemicals in the course of our 2 years in Hwachong. He looks bewildered, then said no. Then we persisted in our persuading. Then he looks like he's really scared of us and wants to close us up in IMH. LOL. He was a triple science student. He has 3 other JC classmates who went on to become bio teachers. He joined HC in 2005. He wants students who want to improve themselves. Er, nothing really enchanting about him now.

My PW teacher is Mr Chan. He is zhiyi's CT. He looks like 1 of those hopeful fresh-out-of-uni teachers who aspire to inspire their students. Lol. He dropped a bomb by telling us that PW groupings are set by MOE. And he will be advising them because he's our tutor. Said it with a smile some more. -_- Some people are trying to become good friends with him before he sends his advice over. LOL. He's also quite funny lah. Prompts discussion quite successfully. At least the class doesn't become dead quiet.

My math tutor is Mr Yeow. He is HCJC's discipline master. So far he has not yelled at us (as a class) yet. He is quite funny. This proves that some people can adapt different personalities according to their surroundings. He likes dissing people who didn't do their tutorial before hand. He makes friends with students who give very long answers on the whiteboard. He prefers awake students to asleep students so much so that he allows eating of sweets and sudden and random standing. He puts on an overwhelming amount of cologne the smell of which engulfed my olfactory senses when I stepped into his first tutorial lesson.

KI teachers are new in the school. D: We are once again the guinea pigs. D: But not bad lah, they are quite good. Good as in not complicated and dry and dead boring like erm, the other tutor for the other class. Lol. KI notes are bountiful. They just keep coming and coming and coming and coming. And I haven't touch a single one. D: This is bad. The KI paragraph has 3 1/2 lines but more sad faces than the rest.

I typed for very long. Am very bored. Conclusion: I like 09S70. :D

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Something that is supposed to be VERY embarrassing happened today. But surprisingly I don't feel anything drastic. Perhaps the consequences haven't arrived yet. Shit, I hope it never does. But they say things spread fast around in HCJC. Rawr. How?

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Today I saw someone whom I used to dislike. One of those kind whom you pity because everyone else dislikes them, but prolong exposure and interaction with them causes you to (once again) understand your dislike for them. No, I am not talking about hupbeng. We talked for around 5min, so I didn't really have a chance to evaluate. Maybe we haven't been around each other for too long, or perhaps they have changed, but I didn't really feel the irritation that I used to feel whenever I talked to her. I think her way of speaking changed for the better. And her facial expressions are less annoying. But I never know, perhaps she is still the same. After all, some people completely change after prolonged periods of interaction.

But I'm happy for them, because they said that they are happy where they currently are now. To each their own. They'll find friends. Unless they don't want to. Like my afore mentioned chinese teacher.

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I'm sick. D: Down with flu. My immune system is getting worse and worse.